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LOVE LIFE....GOD's precious gift...:)

2010-09-06T17:48:00.000-07:00

Here I am...post birthday celebration...and STILL in 1 piece...:P thank god for one of the islands...AMEN for the beach and the pool....which...mamak boy (who was in tow..) couldnt get enuff of..! XD My li'l socialite in the making has started early...his pickup line sounds something like this..

" Hi...my name's Affan Najiy...(and he quickly starts spelling it..coz he easily gets irritated by peepz mispronouncing it...OR...worse yet...calling him 'abang or adik' or somewhere along those lines) so he goes..A-F-F-A-N...and I speak English...!"
and tops it off with that cute endearing smile...and...he nails it EVERY time! :P all those kids and their parents just get suckered in...and he gets them eating out of his hands!

What have I learned in my 36 years of existance..? Due to the most recent developments..not to come across bitter or anything...YES...I HAD to learn the hard way...It wouldnt be Sara if it was otherwise, would it? :P

'life's a bitch....cause she's forever PMS-ing..' (yes Mr Muttley...you're right...and I'm NOT gonna reaffirm that-FORGET IT!)
BUT...on hindsight...'Live and Learn'...(Yes Nilly...you're right too..)You learn...you bleed...you cry....YOU LEARN...(Yes...Ms Alanis Morisette knows her stuff!)'No regrets', 'Live and Let Die..', 'No One Lives Forever..', 'Come What May..', 'Carpe Diem' (still my personal favorite)

Anyhow...I've been having this scene replaying over and over again in my mind's eyes..its THE last scene from 'My Best Friend's Wedding'...its where Julia Roberts character was sitting all by herself and strumming her fingers on the table at her best friend's wedding reception...after finally saying her goodbyes to him...and she gets a call from Rupert Everett's gay character, George...and he says...something like...
"There might not be love...and god forbid....there might not be sex...
but there will be DANCING..!"

It makes perfect sense...whatever life leads you...you make the best of it...your life is how it should be...embrace it...just make sure you dont trample over some peepz hearts and feelings while doing so...cause THATS gonna cost ya sometime in the future...what goes around comes around...(Ms Alicia Keyes and JT sang about it...and its damn true...)

Heres TO LIFE....cheers! Yammmm....!! :P

P.S.

my utmost gratitude Dee...hugzzz....:)

P.S.S

I would also like to extend my apologies to everyone that I might have hurt or trampled on...was never my intentions to do so...MY BAD! It took me 36 years to see things clearly...I'm a friggin slow learner...what can I say..?? :P

H-O-P-E....? OR L-O-V-E...?? (THE SEQUEL-A PERSONAL NOTE)

2010-08-29T07:06:00.000-07:00

While waiting for mamak boy to come home...I had ample time to sit back and reminisce the weekend...it was a weekend that I had been looking forward to...AND had been constantly reminded by a certain someone...who...had gone into the habit of counting down the days TO Friday..:P AND...not forgetting providing a particular sound effect that added significant suspense to the entire thing...(Daymmmnn babe....) I had been thoughtfully enquired regarding my needs and wants for the weekend...which I found extremely sweet...:)

Anyhow...It was nice to have a stress-free weekend...FINALLY....after all the build up...the theme was free and easy...and it DEFINITELY was...thanx to the host with the mostest...ALTHOUGH...I definitely wanted to unleash some ass kicking after I nearly got into a stranger's car...courtesy of a certain someone who had been feeding me a different image of himself! Just goes to show how naive i can get at times URGHHHH...Nevertheless...I've been made aware of how vulnerable and trusting I can be in the past...I blame it totally on my passionate heart....ever passsionate to discover a genuine connection with another person...ESPECIALLY, a person that matters to me...

Consequently....I'm hoping beyond hope...the SEXY person is satisfactory of what have been mentioned...(THERE!! I've put it in black and white..! happy now...?? :P)My apologies if my questions made you uncomfortable...but thats what we are...straightforward all the way...

Anyways...like whats transpired and mentioned...we're not getting any younger...'beating around the bush' is passe....its like what you read out loud to me from the Paolo Coelho novel...(which I enjoyed immensely..) love requires a total surrender...and I for one...am willing to meet halfway....I mean...wasnt the weekend proof enough..? :P

H-O-P-E..? OR....L-O-V-E....?

2010-08-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

Here I am...staring yet once again at this blank page for the 20,000th time...today! As much as I hate to admit it...I have somewhat lost my touch...having abandoned this invaluable page that has been an outlet for all my thoughts and woes for quite sometime....

Many have personally queried of my MIA...and I have done my best to provide somewhat an acceptable, logical explanation...instead of a lengthy episode of how yours truly had to go through hell and back again in one piece...anyhow...It was like....how shall i put it..? "A tornado in a trailerpark..." :P It was an emotional rollercoaster ride..an unpleasant feeling that I would not have wished EVEN on an enemy...(well...I lied...MAYBE on an exceptionally annoyingly relentless enemy..XD)

My most current situation has been somewhat taken a positive turn...I think...I have rediscovered what Ashlee Simpson was singin bout (in that catchy single that made her stop lurking in the shadows of big sis,Jessica...)I would like to believe that it had inturn discovered me...in a form of a person who has TONNES of stuffs in common with me...causes my li'l heart to perform a flip or a sommersault voluntarily...but the downside is...geographical factor is in the way...(yes babe...before you ask...m talkin bout YOU...XD)

Although...my logical..overbearing, meticulous Virgo self has been attempting to put a halt to it...can I be blamed for lookin at the bigger picture...?for bein extra cautious..? after what I've been through...? But me...being a GURL...(as expected of me...:P) has been analyzing each minute detail under the microscopes of "finding faults"...(DAMN IT SARA! why cant you just be happy for once..??)

Anyways...as you can see...I'm havin a debate with my inner self...or maybe I'm just borderline split personality...(hmmm....whichever comes first..:P)OR...maybe I should blame it on lack of sleep and nourishment...?(and theres a story behind the not sleepin..or should I say, a RECORD...? wink! wink! Norm...) Nevertheless...I'm just gonna draw a few deep breaths...and not dwell on it too much...and just go with the flow...and hope beyond hope...that this PLEASANT feeling will last...:)

What I REALY want....

2010-03-06T19:09:00.000-08:00

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin with u....
I think that all that stil matters
Is love ever after
after the life we've been through...
I know there's no life after you...

This bit of the Daughtry song probably sums up what I basically want and need in my life...although it may sound as naive as a beauty queen's plight for "world peace"....but it IS what I've finally come to terms with...and most IMPORTANTLY...have FINALLY have the guts to acknowledge and take action on.....another person's wrong...might just be my right...and vice versa....you cant please everybody....

And I'm very proud to say....no matter what the outcome would be....it is solely the decision that I made and I'm sticking to it....I have never felt SO sure about anything as I do now...It has NEVER been my intention to traipse on anybody's feelings or to get mine trampled on in the process....but...its what needs to be done....and at 36....I'm not planning to wait another 10yrs to do so....God knows I've wasted a lot of time as it is....

Like you said Alex sweetie...."tua kerepot.." remmber? n yessss....I simpan dalam hati....ahaks...hugzzzz

Roasted Chicken....you'll always have me no matter what....n I KNOW I can always count on you minahh...muah2...

Lola....what can I say....your plight for happiness...is NOW also mine sista....;)

Zaza....although your definition of happiness is SLIGHTLY different than mine....in terms of guys n stuff...(as you've pointed out to me so colorfully...:P ) but we're gettin' there babe....

Quai Loh....Ric....U guys have been awesome....hugzzz

Nilly.....(I've saved the best for last..) I meant EVERY word I've said....and all this waiting is killin' me.....u have NO idea....pleeeeeez haulass....:P muah2....

2010-02-23T06:57:00.000-08:00

AS I'm writing this...I am engulfed by so much frustration...

#1...this afternoon....I had unintentionally offended someone.....didnt realize it till it was a li'l too late....but the truth is....no matter how much I wanna relate to some people....I would somehow go on a self-destruct mode....this would have a 2-in-1 effect.....as it goes on simultaneously with the 'defense mechanism'.....and they are both on auto pilot....and once in gear.....can never be turned off...

#2...I've learned something disturbing bout people I consider family.....and as of now....m having TRUST issues....and all of a sudden...I'm taken back to the evening where my grandfather lay bedridden for the longest three months...and what he had said to me...just before he lapsed into comatose the very next day....he said,
"Remember this always.....you can NEVER trust anyone, except for yourself....coz only you would know what's in your heart.."

Of course...I was barely 12 by then...and was rather puzzled by the statement he made....but I love him to death...and had always considered it as a ramblings of a dying man....until now that is....

#3...IF YOU TRULY LOVE SOMEONE, SET THEM FREE....
No matter how much you try to explain how it feels like to be in your miserable pathetic shoes...people would always have difficulties in understanding it....or just come to terms with it....they would just rather deal with something they can see....something superficial...rather than...what has been brewing underneath all the show and dance....what is actually REAL....so my advice is....IF you're NOT in the situation....DONT even bother to try to comprehend...or even TRY to lend a hand....you might end up causing MORE misery n MORE ripples....

Matters of the HEART....

2010-02-07T08:15:00.000-08:00

How do you mend a broken heart....? I mean....You can put antiseptic on a cut or bruise....fix a leg or arm thats broken....but when it comes to that particular internal organ....regardless what you do..or how you do it..If it wants to remain miserably hurt...that's exactly what its gonna determine to do....
The heart aches because of a variety of reasons....ranging from death...failure in somethin'...(my apologies for sounding almost like the Discovery Channel..:P)being hurt,betrayed or neglected by others you care about...I personally think that's THE worse sort of pain any human being can inflict on another fellow human.

Speaking of which....just last weekend I had a couple of my girlfrens over....who...coincidently...are trying to mend their broken hearts...and yes...in case you're wonderin'....their hearts were chewed and spat out by morons who doesnt know the difference between a hot babe and a REAL hot babe (you know...the ones who come as a package...smart,funny,kindhearted and pretty - amongst others)So...we had fun....after all...yours truly IS 'D hostess with the mostest' wink! But....on our little excursion or so called roadtrip...there were some drama here and there...I spent half of the time dozing off on the way to the border! XD

But you know what's even worse then getting your heartbroken...? Realizing that over time....you've allowed a huge gaping hole to replace the spot where your heart used to beat...The hollow feeling is indescribable....here you are...kickin' n breathin'...but....you're just merely floatin' on by carrying out your mundane social obligations or routines...The saddest thing that could ever happen to anyone is...being too acclimatized to the condition....that he or she's not even aware of it...UNTIL....matters of the heart come tugging again...and you are clueless on how to react... I'd like to share what 1 of my BFF's valentine's Day card read for me....

"May all that you want come true. Life is what you dictate. Sometimes even if it doesnt be what you wish it to be, have no fear. God is always with those who are true to Him. Please stay strong and wonderful. Don't let anybody put you down coz they are definitely not worth it."

You'll Be missed.....

2010-01-29T07:47:00.000-08:00

I'm writing this cause I miss someone....a GREAT deal....as corny as it may sound..he was my oak....he was my pillar of strength....my confidante....and he was....most importantly...MY FRIEND.....
Sure...I was pissed off when I was D last person to learn of his terminal condition...but I gotta admit.....judging by the way I reacted....who could have blamed him..?? Especially when I thought of what great lenghths he took on HOW to actually break the bad news to me....
There's NO two way about it...the only description that fits him perfectly is....A BEAUTIFUL SOUL...even more beautiful now in his passing...wish I had more time..to be with him...to hold his hand....:( In all those years of knowin' him....he was like the brother I never had...we even shared the 'dirt'....and his parents and sister are the coolest...love you guys....hugzzz
A few months back...when I was made aware of his condition...I had learned sumtin which troubled me...(courtesy of his mom...he never breathed a word bout it...especially to me..)he had collapsed at work...so when I saw him...he was actually on bedrest....he was his usual cheeky complacent self, nevertheless...His mom was taking it rather badly...as I was leavin'...his mom grabbed me n hugged me ever so tightly...n whispered(between her sobs)sumtin which I wish she hadnt....
"You are his best gurl..." and I was like...
"But aunty....we were never an item..." and she looked at me in the eyes and said...
"I know my son...and I know his every thought and feelings..."
I felt so numb....and I cried the entire time on the flight home....till the dude next to me freaked out and called the stewardess....
We were all well aware that his chances were minutely slim....but we hoped....at least...I did....guess that's why I'm still in denial....His last words for me that he had relayed through his sis...I would cherish as long as I'm with the living...
" Live your life...Be fearless...n I love u...."
"Love you too, Ed...." :)

SKELETONS IN THE CLOSET....?

2010-01-16T21:36:00.000-08:00

FACT...
I've been havin' trouble sleepin..
FACT....
I lurve shoppin...particularly SHOES....
FACT...
I LOVE Japanese food....
These are things which are made known to my buds and direct family members...Things that make them love me....for me...^^
I've always like to think that given time....people would eventually know me for who I am and what I stand for...But unfortunately..(or should I say...FORTUNATELY..:P )some people are still quite taken aback by my ever 'colorful' self expression....be it physically..(how i look and dress) or verbally....which some people dubbed outspoken...(which i take into my stride..TQ..)
Just the other nite...while I was on9 in d quiet early hours...I was posed by a Question that got me thinkin'....
"How can you tell if a gurl's gay...?.."
I said...
"You just do....like how dudes know that a dude is a gay..."(well more or less...that's what I said...)
I mean...how much DO you know about a person...? Like in the case of Ted Bundy or Jeffrey Dahmer....The two most notorious Psychopaths of our times...who...are known (or made known..:P )for being very charming and sweet by their friends and families...The more pertinent Question would be...why do we we hide our deepest darkest secrets? well...okay...Bundy and Dahmer's not the best of examples....:P But you know where I'm comin' from....
MYTH....
I love my job and cant wait to get to my office...daily...
MYTH....
I am a typical malay lady.....leading a typical life in Malaysia
MYTH....
I am a typical language teacher....:P
My point is....we all hide certain parts of our lives from others...cause we're afraid....of being criticized....of bein ostrasized....of bein DIFFERENT....people have always been appalled and intrigued by things which are DIFFERENT at the very same time...
Well.....being different is not a crime....and to those who are constantly in fear of how our society's gonna dub them negatively...DONT BE! live your life....choose the path that rocks if needs be....To err is human....if you fall...get back on the saddle....well...you catch my drift....:P
Regardless....skeletons in the closet....might have an undesirable effect to our families...their feelings might have irreversible damage...and we, in turn would not be looked upon as the same person that they've adored and love all the while...(you know..pedestal and all)...So I'd say....What they dont know...wont kill 'em...
CARPE DIEM...^^

I heart Malaysia Baby....^^

2010-01-10T23:02:00.000-08:00

Last week my stress level has been on THE all time high.....coz as most of you are aware...the starting of the new semester had coincided with the mamak boy's first week of kindy....It was trying as it was amusing....the boy did what was expected....there was a li'l drama...with the crying and what not..(Not the mommy though....she was an oak!pheww... ehehe..)there was a bit of humor here and there....a li'l anger.....all in the good name of pre school....:P
I guess it was coz the mommy had too much fun during new year's eve....(Thanx for hangin out with me Super Kirk...even with ur two left feet....hugzzz)but if she didnt unwind then...she would've been in a more 'explosive' mood with the mamak boy...and of course...there was the weekend at CH...got to cool down and chill...that's the UPside...the DOWNside was...I had caught a cold...and was sneezing my head off...and the drizzlin rain didnt help either...not forgetting the cool breeze....but all and all....real nice trip....mamak boy wanted to go again last weekend....ehe
And I would like to extend my gratitude to my sis...a.k.a Aunty Sally...my twin, Aunty Nija....and not to mention the extras...who's made my life more bearable...my buds...alex sweetie...Ah Jou...Jon..Mr Muttley...Hugzzz...( somehow that sounded like an acceptance speech at an awards show...:P)n O...my GF...where's our next destination...?? ahaks
The weekend however, was really cool....got to get away from the house...had a fun time...swimmin and watever....but then some of my buds were a bit concerned over the national crisis.....which didnt really have any immediate effect on me and my family...But I personally believe on the old saying..."dont make a mountain out of an anthill"....and this goes for everybody...lets not ruin the sanctity of what we possess...(trust me...after my indon trip few years back...I've never loved my country MORE....wink!)1 malaysia baby....^^

VENUS VS MARS

2010-01-02T22:02:00.000-08:00

Must it ALWAYS be about how different dudes and dudettes are...? I mean....what are we trying to prove..?who's better at doin things...? who's got the upperhand...?Well...if u asked me...its just too much of a workout.....:P
Take for instance....when a dude is goin through a rough patch in his life...Be it financially...sucky job...health problem.....he does sumtin which is unthinkable and nonsensical....(to the member of the opposite sex, that is...ehe) he decides to go into self seclusion....he shuns everything that matters...and everybody that cares bout him....here you are tryin your best to have a connection with the dude....and what does he do...?? He plays hide and seek with you instead....sighhhh.....
As we were busy with the new year hype....a handful of my GFs had been pourin' their hearts out bout their relationships woes....and herein lies the irony.....call it a woman's intuition...or maybe the over emotional side of a woman..(bet the guys are nodding in unison on this one...ahahaha) but to my discovery...it all boils down to the same crucial factor....the difference between a a man and a woman....the battle of the sexes, if u must....
The complaints are all SO familiar.... the dudes being out-of-reach...being emotionally unavailable....(which I've come to believe...certain characteristics that one has to learn to except and learn to live with...wink!) I mean....in all fairness...the blokes have a tough time relating to us too...so you gotta give them some credit for the effort...or for at least PRETENDING to make an attempt to comprehend....
But in all honesty....it would be highly appreciated and less stressful....if the dude were to just tell you what's botherin' him....just spell it out.....rather that having us to read your minds....(which doesnt take too much time....coz basically we know what's on your mind 24/7....wink!) Its just that...life for us ladies has evolved over the centuries....we're no longer JUST breeding machines...(although i hav GFs who loves being one! dont ask...ehehe)we have all sorts of responsibilities that requires jugglin'....
So lets celebrate our differences....and meet halfway.....(never thought I'd be takin advice from a band....:P)

2009-12-28T18:39:00.000-08:00

Hmmmmm....let's see.....I was out and about on Christmas eve in all its commercialized splendour...which reminds me of how mamak boy has been a li'l WAYYY too overly exposed to christmas pressies and halloween costumes...(The Disney channel has been the MAIN culprit! eheks...)well...can you blame 'em..?its FUN!! MEMO TO ME...."Must intoduce Islamic teachings in a FUN manner..."
Anyway...like I was sayin'....I decided to join the hype...and the location was..where else....the island..(if I had an option...i'd be elsewhere..wink!wink!)....but THANK GOD for GREAT company.....eheks...As anticipated...it was crowded EVERYWHERE....and it felt like peepz on the island were spillin' over...(try and imagine that in your mind's eyes)By late afternoon the roads were gettin congested....I had my dinner at GP....while havin an earful from the lousy performance there..they had their countdown stage and the whole works....but the performers were...how shall i put it...? nuthin to rave about....especially the two scantily clad gurls who were 'attempting' some sort of a dance number...? and I knew that was the que for me to haul ass from that scene...YIKES!
Later that evening we were at the jetty's side....the crowd was definitely growing...so we decided to blend in....at one point, the waitress came and asked us if it was posible for us to share the booth with another group of peez...so we thought...why not? the MORE the merrier.....Now this is where am gonna start complainin'...
I extended my hand to them and introduced myself....and what I found quite amusin' was that...the group said 'hi' back sheepishly....ALL OF THEM....the dudes and the dudettes....attempted a weak mumble of their names of some sort....(well...I'm gonna assume that's what it was...with all the deafening merriment surrounding us...)and minded their own biznes....ehe....I mean...if it was where I would WANNA be and would RATHER be...(remmember THE OPTION...??)we would all be chattin' the nite away and havin' fun TOGETHER....after all...it was a SOCIAL event....and you're expected to SOCIALISE....?? Only after downing a few rounds of drinks were they able to loosen up a bit....and yet....they were stil a li'l territorial...^^
Which only goes to show...peepz at this part of our Malaysian world...are NOT cool....FAR from it....and they lack the social skills when it comes to partayin'....I extend my sincerest apologies to Oon2.....eheks...LOVE U....

2009-12-26T22:22:00.000-08:00

Anyone who hasnt read a Paolo Coelho book has been missin' on a lot.....and I MEAN a whole lot! I would personally recommend "The Alchemist" and "Veronica Decides To Die".....beautifully written.....but most importantly....he strikes the right chord....
I've been strugglin' to finish off my 21days of annual leave and squeezin' 'em in the 2weeks before semester commences....is just....well...u do the math.....ehe....(this is why I'm an English Language teacher...eheks)
But all and all...it has been the best couple of weeks.....never knew I had needed the break.....must be all the commuting that's taken its toll....I've been so used to it....that a 45mins back and forth to the Engineering Campus is just a walk in the park( not like I've been doin'DAT much either...ehe...)and by the way....i never do think much of the travellin' till people ask me how long it takes for me to do so...and then...and ONLY then...do I realize.....how FAST I've been goin....wink!
As I'm writin' this....my son....the mamak boy....is actually havent a blast jumpin and rollin' around on the freshly done laundry....and he's just tryin on my bra...(like how Wall-E did...ehehee)and he inquisitively says.."mommy...is this your bra...?" and my prompt reply was..."yes.." This was followed by another honest Q....(purely on a need-to-know basis)"Mommy.....are you a gurl...?"
Well...its a good thing that we got that ironed out before he starts his kindy this new year.....ehe....But who would've thought...that li'l 3.65kg bundle of joy...(that turned me into a beached whale for the LONGEST of nine months..)is now...on his way to fulfill his first social obligation...my new year's resolution.. is......NOT to cry the moment I send him there....or do the next best thing....NOT to let him see me cry....sighhhh....how fast they do grow.....

2009-12-14T21:58:00.000-08:00

I was online with 1 of my BFFs....and i was a bit taken aback by the sudden comment the person made about......ADAM LAMBERT.....(yep...the dude's STILL makin' headlines...wether u like it or not....ehe...)
Of course...(you guessed it!) the topic at hand was over Mr Lambert's performance and 'somewhat public display of affection' at one of the recent awards' shows.....
The friend of mine said somethin' along the line of..."why did he have to go and fuck up his career..???" (if i recall correctly...ehe)and my reaction was....."what....?what's the big deal...? madonna did it....ehehehe" and the unlikely response to that was..."but babe....Madonna's a BIG name.....established name....Lambert's just startin......."
well....here's my personal take on the entire stunt.....first of all....If Maddie could...why not Lambert...or ANY other dude for the matter...??which boils down to the fact that everyone could tolerate a gal-on-gal action....(lets just put that as delicate and mildly as we can, shall we...? wink!) but....when it comes to dude-on-dude action (if-u-know-what-i mean...dat calls for ANOTHER....WINK!) EVERYBODY turns purplish with discomfort.....talk about double standard...dontcha think..??
but MOST importantly i think.....why are we gettin' all worked up over it...?we should ask ourselves...at this point in time....when we've not been able to REALLY curb certain things.....or if needs be...and I stress on the word 'F'...censorship....what are things that we should not have public display of? and what are the things that are okay...?
I would just like to say....like what I said to my friend....Mr Adam Lambert's a DAMN good singer and entertainer....and from where I'm standin'....that's ALL there is to it!
ADAM LAMBERT ROCKS!! WoooHoooo....!!

Last WeekN - Part Deux

2009-12-07T19:28:00.000-08:00

As I was sayin'...all and all....it was a GREAT weekend! Bein' around my close buds had made somewhat a much needed difference....love ya guys!!
Bein' through a certain stressful episode in my life has made it REALLY trying at times....especially when you have a little person who depends on you solely for his livelihood.....but no matter how distressing....when that li'l mamak boy looks up to you with those innocent eyes and say.."mommy...I love u..." it makes it all worthwhile...(yessss...its the awwwww moment....ehe)
Goin' back to the weekend...my buds n I...(not forgettin' mamak boy....ehe)visited a friend's home...they've just quite recently moved in....it was a beaute....nicely decorated...nuthin' OTT.....it had that pleasant homey vibe...so much so...that after a quick tour...we all just lazed around on d comfy couches and chilled....The entire conversation revolved around of course...what else??...the furnitures n home decor stuffs...
But at that moment i just felt....and came to the realization....that its not about stuffs....it was the human contact that's makin' me feel utterly relaxed....these people who matters to me....whom i care about....bein' around them...and just havin' a lame-ass converstion bout furnitures( a topic that i crave about daily and hold close to my heart...NOT!)...is just makin' me simply...happy....
It doesnt matter where you're at...be it Jakarta...somewhere in Europe,for instance...but if you're unsure...and haven't come to terms to whatever it is that's quite unsettling....you will never be able to find that one true thing that's important in life....HAPPINESS....
What makes one happy...?I've yet to re-discover that feeling...

P.S.
In case some of you are wonderin'....
I call my son 'mamak boy' on account of him bein'
hairy and LOVES roti canai....ahahaha

2009-12-06T18:39:00.000-08:00

I'm just gonna get straight to the point.....I would like to extend my humblest apologies to my fellow muslims IF my 'pilot' blog had offended them in ANY posible way....coz unknowingly....it was brought to my attention that the last part of my 'maiden entry' was dubbed as bein' blasphemous.....it was never my intention or in my nawaitu to do so....FAR from it....but i must admit....I'm quite pleased regardless watever the responses are.....wink!
Anyways....now that's done and over with....phewww...just wanted to relate to you guys what I learned over the weekend.....(was...i should say...somewhat enlightenin'couple of days....)I attended 1 of my closest girlfriend's wedding with a family of non-malays.....n herein lies the discovery....eheks..
my dear friends...the couple....were not aware of how a Malay wedding had evolved over the years.....they promptly sat themselves at the table waitin'to be served when they were made aware that they would have to queue up at the buffet table instead...
and of course...next...they waited for the silat n kompang to be presented upon the arrival of the newlyweds....and again they were somewhat disapointed by the mere recording of the 'kompang' bein' played.....
and the final blow came...when the 'bunga telor' was produced....cause to their dismay...it had nuthin to do with a 'bunga' or a 'boiled egg'....but....the gifts came in the form of small cute towels folded ever attractively in cute boxes with a'thank you' initialed on them...not forgettin' the sweets....which were put in cute colorful coin purses...which was a big hit with the kids!
well...all and all was a nice pleasant wedding complete with family and crazy friends...yours truly had a nice time teasin' the bride who was gobblin' down her rice....(what can i say...?she's not a typical blushing bride...that's why I LOVE YA MANJA...!!eheks..)

I Dun Wanna Survive.....

2009-12-02T19:17:00.000-08:00

We've all had that feelin' when we step out of the cinema....either feelin wonderful bout ourselves....psychotic.....or even wanting to kick someone's ass....its that feelin' that lingers on with you.....the aftermath...either for a couple of hours...(if its a not-so-bad movie...) or haunting you for a few days....(if its an exceptionally SCARY movie...like "Phobia 2"...go catch it if u havent...wink!)
Anyways....what sticks to us most of the time....are the one-liners....and my current favorite is....
"I dun wanna survive....I wanna LIVE....!"
I'm not gonna even reaveal to you which movie this one's from....not a relatively new movie....but....If you are an avid moviegoer (such as yours truly..) you wouldnt have ANY problem nailin' this one!
As corny and cheesy as it may seem...at this particular point in my life...it actually makes sense....i mean....why waste your life away standin' at the sidelines and playin' it safe?? when there's SO many things to live for! We're always burdened by our social norms...or even cultures...(those in the Eastern part of the world would understand what I mean)till we forget HOW to LIVE.....and merely stragglin' along our mundane routines day in and day out....sigh....
But...nevertheles.....I would like to maintain...MORE THAN EVER NOW....that GOD is DEFENITELY a MAN....why? u might ask....well...its the only explanation of how our lives could all get SO messed up at one point or another...cause ONLY a man would have such a twisted sense of humor!